FEAR. The four-letter bad word that I believe is just as hurtful as any other four-letter bad word you might be thinking of at this very moment.
To be honest, I know that word so very well. I have lived in fear as long as I can remember.
Fear of dying when my best friend was killed in a car crash when we were 16.
Fear of not being good enough because as hard as I tried to fit in with groups of friends, or when I didn’t wear the “right brand” or when I chose not to do what others were doing.
Fear of being in my own head. Sometimes my thoughts have been very dark and scary.
Fear of bad health. I feared being overweight because that was something I knew all too well growing up. My family was overweight, so I felt destined to be, too.
I feared for my own life when I was 25 in college and a lump was found at my yearly exam. My body went numb and I couldn’t move a thing… I even passed out. So many appointments. Finally, after following it for two years, it was classified normal.
I feared becoming diabetic after my gestational diabetes with my first son and had acquired so many health complications even after his birth that made me feel like death. I lost a lot of blood that led to severe anemia that later got resolved by a blood transfusion.
I feared I was going crazy when I fell into deep anxiety and depression after my second son was born. I had that feeling that the whole world was crashing down to the whole point I felt nothing. No emotion. No feelings.
But what if you defied these odds that are against you and you turned it around to create a story that was more based on being FEARLESS?
Over time, I have taken these fears and used them to overcome and conquer these fears to create a more meaningful story of courage and bravery.
I have taken control over my health which has been the greatest blessing in my life. I have learned to overcome that fear and feel absolutely amazing about myself physically. It’s taken consistency every day for the last two years since my second son was born but I have defied these odds! I recently ran my first half marathon and currently training for my first marathon later this year.
I have sought help to help me overcome the emptiness of depression and am coming out of stronger than I have ever been.
Every day is a new day to know your worth and your worth in God’s eyes is sufficient. With each new day, I realize that I am ENOUGH.
You ARE enough. Even as adults, we might still be trying to fit in in all the noise of motherhood, business, or who you are as an individual but know that no matter what you are brighter than glitter.
I’ve taken chances to start my own business in photography, health and fitness, and recently Bei: Be Beautiful with a mission to empower women that they are beautiful no matter what their story may be.
To me this is the definition of being a #fearlessfemale. Taking your fears and turning them into strengths. Taking that old story and turning it into something meaningful and beautiful that can help serve others. Leading your family by example. No matter what you’re going through, be fearless and remember you got this!